what ever happened to...

what ever happened to the shows that made sense, had morals and were actually entertaining? a lot of this crap on tv now irks my nerves, especially the cartoons. now-a-days you won't catch me watching too much tv. i only have time for kyle xy, and few choice reality shows. and some of the back in the day disney shows. right now im watching thats so raven . wasn't devon the cutest?

confessions of a broken heart .

so , i'm about to be in an irratble state of mind. i dont know what's going to become of me. all i know right now is... i'm broken. i'm so broken.

alone.broken.dead.

good morning .

intro ;
Good morning, Good morning love ,
It's my favorite love song .
I waited all night long

verse 1 ;
Before you get into the shower
Before you worry about your hair
Baby give me one more hour
I want you to stay right there,I don't wanna lose a moment
I don't wanna miss a kiss
If i could plan the perfect day, love,
Then i would start it just like this...

chorus ;
Good morning, Good morning love
It's my favorite love song
I waited all night long
Good morning morning, Good morning love
Before we start the day dear
I'm whispering in your ear
Good morning.

verse 2 ;
Now baby how can i convince you
I'll make it so you can't resist
Whatever else you have to do now
It can't be half as good as this
I'll chase you underneath the sheets, love
And i won't let you get away
The day won't be complete, love
Unless we get a chance to say

chorus x1

bridge ;
Open your eyes
See my sun rise
I feel you're skin
So warm inside
Day breaks so sweet
When you're next to me
So stay each night
So each morning will be

chorus

Before We Start The Day Dear
I'm Whispering in your ear
Let's get lost together
I will smile forever
Was morning

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FUCK! i love this song .

John Legend is pure genius .

i've always been a fan . ♥

recovering...

so here's my day of recovery ;

8:12 AM
- my grandma wakes me up to give me dayquil before taking josh to school .

11:47
- wake up to the phone ringing . its my mama ; going to lunch .

11:50-1 PM
- Mrs. Doubtfire . something like breakfast .

1:30ish
- bath + music + sweats . more dayquil . Be Kind Rewind [ middle && end ] . laptop - bbs , facebook , yl .

2:00 PM
- upstairs . Smart Guy + text convo with Alex .

3:00
- Dreamgirls [ was in spanish ] so 106 & Park . make bed .

3 until..
- more dayquill. computer time ; included yl , bbs , facebook , blogspot , imvu , photoshop , myspace , atf , createblog , myspace code sites . aim . ate mickey d's . dl`d so far gone . itunes . drake > ipod .

11:00 PM
- welcomed mama home from work . shut down PC . laptop + BET .


diagnosis;
- sore throat: gone .
- headaches: gone .
- fevers: gone .
- stuffy nose: needs to go .
- sneezing: tired of it .

Staying home from school today was good for my health. I am definitely feeling a lot better than I did yesterday.

smh ugh .

I really wish I would've stayed home today. More importantly, I wish I wasn't sick. I swear, the weather here is ignorant. It hasn't rained since Tuesday, which means it was sunnier yesterday and today. I don't know how or when exactly but on the way to El Camino on the 12:30 bus, my throat started hurting. Got home, ate pizza and lasagna and birthday cake for my grandpa's birthday. Went to bed at nine. Now the people who know me knows that there is something wrong with that picture. I'm nocturnal! The earliest I go to bed is 12:00. I took some Alka Seltzer Cold before I went to sleep hoping that would make everything better. I was wrong. I woke up this morning with even more of a sore throat and a stuffy nose. It's the weather I tell you. Can't stand this weather! I was going to stay home but decided to man up and go to school. Plus, I didn't need to miss Cain's class . (he wasn't even there anyway -_-) All throughout second period, my throat felt like it was going to close on me, and Mr. Thomas was all down my neck when I decided to sit on the floor. But Zina had me dying though. She lightened my mood for a brief minute with her crazy antics talking about this loud mouth girl that annoys the both of us. Fourth period was nothing better. I was real hot, like I could feel the warmth my self. Took two tylenol and sat it out. Sixth period and lunch was fun/funny. I tried not to focus on my throat or my head or my nose, and enjoyed what was going on around me. When 2:50 hit, I was happy to finally be up out of there.

The good thing about today was I finally got two things I've been wanting forever.

Robeks - Passionfruit Cove - Junior

Subway - Broccoli && Cheese Soup - Small .

BUT now my head is starting to hurt again. Might not catch me in school tomorrow.

california weather can kiss my ass !

i hate it . i really do lmao . why does it wanna rain like a bitch , i mean really rain cats and dogs on the ride to school . fifteen minutes into class it stops raining . sun comes out and everything . tell me why it stayed like tht (on&off) for the rest of the day ? so my three shirts, two jackets, warm fuzzy socks, and giant umbrella all went to waste . i swear if i wake up tomorrow morning and its raining im going to go INSANE.

hmph .

12:18
can't sleep .
hairapy @ 4:30 .
hairapy is love .
early tuesday morning .
thomas & cain tomorrow .
don't wanna go .
need to write .
finally got to save my videos .
my fondness for matt grows the more i see him .
can't find my remote to turn off the tv .
62% of battery life on the dash .
i want chocolate mousse !
rip rogue .
im feeling the randomosity of this blog .
saw some things that left me at a loss for words .
never ever again in my life .
still looking for my remote .
robot chicken or w/e the fuck is on is annoying .
i dont want to get up in six hours to go to school .
12:23
i should probably get up and look for that damn remote .
i'm really not sleepy .
starting to think i am an insomniac .
need some music to soothe my soul .
where's my ipod ?
can't believe they left me in wash's class... alone .
ehh , i'm going to be fucked up tomorrow .
cutting off all communication with the world sounds damn good right now .
... wanna make like a rocket and go .

valentine`s day at dominguez .

Today was a fun day. I woke up after ten being threatened. My grandma was on the phone talking about if I didn't clean my room, bathroom, house... she wasn't going to take me, Auri, and Tanti to the step show. I wasn't having that so I got up ( 15 minutes later lol ) and got to work. First I cleaned my room, vaccumed the whole bottom half of the house, then cleaned the bathroom and got dressed. I called my grandma and tried to go look for something new to wear to the step show... fail. So I put on something I already had in my closet and looked for somethin to eat while I waited for Auri and Tanti.

We got to CSUDH around 3:30. The place was PACKED... not. It was a ghost town. None of us knew where we were going, and I had remembered Marquelle saying it was gonna be at the Home Depot Center, but that was locked up and deserted. So we drove around the parking lot asking random people if they knew where the step show was located. When we found out where it was, Tanti, Auri and I got out the car and walked down the trail to the gym. When we got inside, we paid for our ticket... 20 bucks - ridiculous ! All I gotta say is, those people made a lot of money off that show. Then out of nowhere I see Jayshell and his big hair lol. When he passed he said hey and gave me a hug and I followed Tanti into the gym part of the gym.

The first thing I see is Marquelle waving like a crazed woman with the rest of the MHS girls. We go over to her and gave her a hug and wished her luck. "Hey honeybun!" lol, I don't know why but that had me dying.

The show started about half an hour late (justlikeblckppltobelatelol) and I was getting so sick of the hosts talking and talking and talking and talking. They needed to just introduce the teams and be gone, smh. I really enjoyed myself though. My favorites were Animo, Inglewood (boys), Westchester andd the girls of the MHS drill team. CONGRATS to Marquie (1st place girls) && Jey (3rd place co-ed).

Oh && no Valentine for me, but I honestly don't care. Never had one in the past, why start now?

antiquelyunique.

friday the 13th .

What a way to end the week. It was raining cats and frogs ( stole that from Tanti, lol ) today. I HATE the rain with a passion unless I'm in my room, under the covers with my music in my ears and hot chocolate. But it was spent at school for seven hours . Today was the VDAY dance but I didn't go to that crap because the last dollar dance I went to I didn't enjoy myself. And I dont understand why I would go and give Leadership my money to sit there and watch people dance. Not my scene . This week has been all types of crazy, I don't even want to start to describe it. IT'S BEEN COLD AS FUCK TOO!... another thing I hate, lol. And they ( Alicia & Auri ) were tryna go get me to see Friday the 13th with them tonight. Hell to the no. My plans for Valentine's Day include the step show @ the Home Depot Center with Tanti and Auri . Been wanting to go since the college fair. I need to go find a new outfit. I hope it doesn't rain...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZINA !

So today's a special day , none other than the homegirl Zina's 19th birthday. Zina (pictured above in blue) came to CHHS in the 10th grade, but we didn't talk much. It wasn't until 11th grade, 3rd period Civics && Econ. with Mr. Berry and 5th period with Ms. Kuzma that we really started talking and becoming friends. She used to have me dying of laughter with her crazy antics, talking about people and whatnot. Now our senior year, we have Thomas together and I sit in on Cain's class. Other times, she be ghost. Zina is one of the most random people I know. She could write her own dictionary with all the stuff she be saying. Happy nineteenth, Zina Bina. Hope you had a good one.

but here's an ice cream to make up for it!

i gochu tomorrow too :)

inked.anteek
nikki's gone.

GRAMMY madness .

First things first, I'm still schocked about the whole Chris and Rihanna ordeal. I didn't want to believe it when I heard ole dude keeping Ryan updated on it during the red carpet show. Even with the articles and whatnot, I still didnt want to believe it . But I guess it is true. I'm glad Chris posted bail, but she's supposedly pressing charges because he has a scheduled court date in March. I wish them both the best of luck. Damn.. I can honestly say that I am disappointed with this night. My two loves that I was rooting for didn't win. ( Jazmine + Trey ) It's okay, they'll get them next year. I'm proud of J. Hud though. She deserved her win && she looked beautiful tonight. I don't think I have anymore comments about the show, because honestly I didn't pay too much attention to it. Might delete it from the list of recordings later.

EDIT: I lied. I really enjoyed T.I. + Jay + Ye + Wayne && M.I.A`s performance. The whole B&W thing gave it a vintage feel and I thought something was wrong with my tv for a minute lmfao. Andddd I loved TI and JT's performance as well. I love Dead and Gone thanks to Zina. Can't wait for the video. And MIA was brave was hell performing nine months pregnant.


off topic; I really need to hit up my desktop though and get back on my graphic making.

again with that mute status .

I sicken myself... point blank period . That's a shame. I really need to work on my people skills . -_-

WTF !

I tell ya, Cali weather is so ridiculous . Like I stated in my previous blog, it has been raining cats and dogs these past couple of days . And when I wake up to the sounds of my brothers yelling like they don't have any home training , I see sunlight peeking out of my blinds . The weather here is so ass backwards, I wouldn't be surprised if it rained tomorrow .

-_____-

inked.anteek

nikki`s gone.

i can`t stand the rain...

It`s about 1 in the morning and I can`t sleep . It has been raining these past couple of days , and honestly I`m not diggin' it . When I got home , after eating my Subway sandwhich and watching Half & Half I went straight to sleep . I don`t know if it was the weather or just my lack of sleep but I slept for a good four hours, waking up twice . That`s why I`m up now . smh . And I`m hungry too, wth ? UGH, the rain is not what's up .

numerology... i can digg it .

You entered: Necole
There are 6 letters in your name.
Those 6 letters total to 27
There are 3 vowels and 3 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 9

The characteristics of #9 are: Humanitarian, giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression. The expression or destiny for #9:

The expression that you exhibit is represented bythe number 9. Your talents center in humanistic interests and approaches. You like to help others as you were intended to be the 'big brother or big sister' type. You operate best when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You work well with people, and have the potential to inspire. This suggests that you could successfully teach or counsel. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this expression. It's possible that you're not using or developing all of these capabilities at this time. Some of your talents may have been used at an earlier time in your life, and some may still be latent. Be aware of your capabilities, so that you can make use of them at appropriate times.

If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural expression in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Your personal ambitions are likely to be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. You are quite idealistic, and disappointed at the lack of perfection in the world. You have a strong awareness of your own feeling as well as those of others. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important.

Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 expression can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this expression.

Your Soul Urge number is:
7 A Soul Urge number of 7 means: With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.

You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.

The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11

An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

now i wanna start studying this shit .
its too true . :O
&& i am highly intrigued .

i can't remember a day i've laughed harder .

school today was funny as hell .

2nd period thomas .
normally i dont have fun in thomas` class but today was an exception . i get in late and see the desks are all bunched together . and i see everyone all spreaded out . i thought in my head ' wtf ik this man aint tryna give us assigned seats ! ' sure enough he was . [ sigh ] that made me upset . so he had me sit at a different table away from my twin , shali , zina , seko and blake . ( though my twin and blake were at the group of tables right beside me and shali behind me . ) both zina and seko were far :( .

mrs. brown came in to inform mr. thomas that we had to stay in the classroom until twelve becasue the sophomores were taking the CAHSEE . i wanted to die... literally . FOUR HOURS IN A FREAKIN MATH CLASS ?!... pre-cal at that . i just knew he was gonna try to make us do some work for those full four hours . .... aint no way in hell .

sure enough tried to get us to do work during fourth period , that we had to spend in there . did i ? nope . boom snap clap . bang bang . tic tac toe ; those were my forms of entertainment during that time . oh && robert getting in trouble with mrs. brown . and her demonstration with shalimar on how she caught him and some girl ( most likely an underclassman ) all hugged up on each other . that demonstration was death .


lunch our alley .
nothing special happened .


6th period visiting cain .
soo since i dont really have s 6th period , i visited cain`s class . when we first got in there he had me grade some quizes while the class did their work . he was in and out of class too .

laughs in cain`s class ( because im too lazy to write in paragraph form how abt a list . )
- jaymz , daron , and brandon whtever the hell they was doing - it had me laughin at points .
- jaison`s question abt the assignment due friday being done on friday .
- auri`s story abt her ex bf being deported .
- mr cain`s teasin alicia abt her old overaged "bf" .
- mr cain`s reaction to me almost cursing out jaison ( who sat way across the room ) .


YUP , funny business .
&& i`m still laughing . smh .